Friday, February 5, 2010

Why I do what I do

Because of notes like these. (posted with permission)


Just found your blog in a desperate search...
Our six year old daughter is having her bone graft in Seattle on March 4th, Pre-op on Feb. 9th. This will be her fourth surgery to date. You would think it would get easier. I feel like I'm going to crack pretty much all the time now.. these last few weeks are brutal. Really hard to explain to my other mom friends. They are supportive, but have really no idea why I feel so (what is the right word here..... anguished?) over this up coming surgery. Maybe because they haven't had their kid look them in the eyes, pleading for you to help them, to not let the doctors do xyz to them... to see that kind of fear in their child...

Anyway, it's helped me so much to read your posts of the last few weeks. Thank you so much for writing them.
I has really meant so much to me.

1 comment:

  1. J,

    I understand. Our baby is 3 years old and has another surgery in two days. This will be her sixth. She's had two fistula surgeries that wouldn't have been if her palate would stay closed.

    This surgery is to revises her lip, take cartilage from her hip to repair her flat nostril and to put in ear tubes.

    I get so stressed and anxious before, during and after her surgeries. She has PTSD (post traumatic stress disorder) from a bad experience at her 4th surgery at 18 months old so her stress builds my stress. I try so hard to keep another event happening to cause her more trauma.

    I tell myself before every surgery that I will do better at this one...but it doesn't happen.

    I hope your little one did well at her surgery.